As I walk in the silent darkness, defending again my steadfast confidence of a personal, involved loving God, as the turmoil all around me rages on, and again the lament from hell is whispered in my ear.
Is there a God, does he care for me at all?
Can he hear me when I cry, does he see me when I fall?
I stumble and struggle and grope in the dark, Battered, and Beaten I finally loose heart!
How do we reconcile the two blatant contradicting realities? The plethora of incredibly wonderful promises from God, and the deafening silence we so often experience when we need Him the most?
And then the voice continues, the subtle silent words from the deceiver.
Silently Apathetic, this God who says He Loves You, yet he abandons his beloved children in enemy territory with a host of Evil Supernatural creatures and their faithful human servants, utterly alone to be Raped, Tormented and Defiled while your prayers are return to you un-opened! And the Silence Screams out, You Fool! You Stupid childish Idiot, your hope is in Fairy Tales! Your Hope Is In Fairy Tales! Scream and shout, say another prayer or cut yourself for all I care, it’s all the same, hopeless, you may as well pray to the wind.
Love Satan
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
So Ya Hade A Bad Day?
The Goodbye World
I hurt too much, I no longer want to fight!
Just to close my eye’s, and slip into the night.
I’ve seen only a glimpse of glory,
but a panoramic view of pain,
I wish this was the dream, and the glory would never wane.
Oh how I long for Heaven, as I sojourn in this land,
this awful place of Goodbyes so much more than I can stand!
Oh to believe there’s a place where you never say Goodbye!
Where you never taste betrayal, and your Loved ones never Die!
How many goodbyes have you said? How many times have you felt
the pain! The dreadful wrenching heartache, them to never hold again!
To watch your Mommy slowly dying or to see your injured Babies
puzzled eyes, to know your spouse is laughing in the night,
with another at their side.
This endless fall of goodbyes, this raging storm of pain,
this never ending nightmare, this relentless pouring rain!
The hill without a downside, the betrayal of a friend,
The long awaited victory that comes crashing to an end!
Oh this world of goodbyes, this can not be my home?
This can’t be all there is for me to ever walk alone!
I have this hope inside me, this knowledge of beyond,
This image of a country, where my heart will never long.
There must be a God of goodness, of goodness, hope and light,
For we’ve seen the roaring devil, and felt his terror in the night!
There must be a God of goodness…
There must be a God of goodness…
Though I’d be ashamed to stand before Him,
as for goodness I have none,
My only hope is God's mercy,
and the Blood of His precious only Son!
Gregory James LaRev
And then He put a new song in my mouth!
I hurt too much, I no longer want to fight!
Just to close my eye’s, and slip into the night.
I’ve seen only a glimpse of glory,
but a panoramic view of pain,
I wish this was the dream, and the glory would never wane.
Oh how I long for Heaven, as I sojourn in this land,
this awful place of Goodbyes so much more than I can stand!
Oh to believe there’s a place where you never say Goodbye!
Where you never taste betrayal, and your Loved ones never Die!
How many goodbyes have you said? How many times have you felt
the pain! The dreadful wrenching heartache, them to never hold again!
To watch your Mommy slowly dying or to see your injured Babies
puzzled eyes, to know your spouse is laughing in the night,
with another at their side.
This endless fall of goodbyes, this raging storm of pain,
this never ending nightmare, this relentless pouring rain!
The hill without a downside, the betrayal of a friend,
The long awaited victory that comes crashing to an end!
Oh this world of goodbyes, this can not be my home?
This can’t be all there is for me to ever walk alone!
I have this hope inside me, this knowledge of beyond,
This image of a country, where my heart will never long.
There must be a God of goodness, of goodness, hope and light,
For we’ve seen the roaring devil, and felt his terror in the night!
There must be a God of goodness…
There must be a God of goodness…
Though I’d be ashamed to stand before Him,
as for goodness I have none,
My only hope is God's mercy,
and the Blood of His precious only Son!
Gregory James LaRev
And then He put a new song in my mouth!
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